My mother decided to paint toe nails this Sabbath Day! :)

I am so sick of seeing “Send your mother flowers if you care” or “She was the one who stayed up all night when you studied and now gift her a blah blah blah” that I can burn down each such shop that screams commercialization!

Mother’s Day to me is special, don’t get me wrong just that I can’t take the commercialization crap and the fact that kids who are gifting their mothers cards et al, tomorrow refuse to acknowledge her choices as a woman, and she’s expected to sacrifice. 

My own mother went for trips with patter leaving us alone every year – thus infusing the concept of ‘lone time’. her funda was simple – I have a life too beyond being your mom. So true, the sacrificial image of mothers really irks me – sacrifice is there is each relationship that we live – however why is it only highlighted on Mother’s Day? Why is Father’s Day projected as a remembrance of all those fun things that we did with him as a kid – don’t fathers sacrifice too? 

Guess, this is indeed a Bollywood hangover – where Nirupa Roy’s and Rakhi’s have all waited for their Karan Arjun to come back and thus portrayed the ever so pitiful mother image. This Mother’s Day when The-Vault asked me to pen down something for them – I decided to ask Shashikala and Bindu to come back. After all, the need is to spread the word that mother’s also need a life of their own and they are not selfish if they demand it. Remember an old letter from my own self to the 6 year old me – I strive to tell her that Ma has a life too, beyond being our Mom!

Mother’s Day also meant me trying to tell the world aloud that we should also give a thought on the topic that i cover in my book A Calendar Too Crowded. My Mother’s Day story is based on a childless couple. It is all about craving motherhood by a woman whose husband lives in denial and says “it’s her fault’! A barren woman, termed as witch, excluded from joyous occasions, the one who cries every time the moon brings in blood – haven’t you met such a woman ever in your own life? Almost 1 in every 6 couples face problems in conceiving – it is a build up and not a “fault” – especially that of the woman! Let’s realize that this Mother’s Day, I pray!

Mother’s Day brought in special interviews at NaariSakhi and The Sip of Life – at both places I give out a bit more about my book, my inspiration and my favorites. The interview with Premium Woman discovers my relationship with my mother in detail.

A lot of mothers were found to be distressed with their kids and thus me and the ever so witty Ritu Lalit decided to de-stress such mothers with problems. We play Agony Aunts in a special column at Wrtierscafe and provide unique solutions to problems. Considering it’s Ritu – trust me laughs galore there! She blogs about the same on her blog too!

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In other news:

Pooja Pillai interviews me here and refers to her earlier review of the book. The Vault interviews me too about my book and more.

R’s Mom, Vanshja, Dhruv and Ajay humble me with their reviews, while Anuradha Goyal makes me want to rush and hug her. Anuradha Goyal is India’s largest individual repository of reviews and she’s one woman with hell lot of wit and guts. An avid travel blogger and a brilliant story teller whose warmth is so infectious. I can go on and one about her but will stop. Do discover her more at her Book review blog and also at her Travel Blog.

Another very close blogger friend and guide Sangeeta Khanna writes about my book here. One gutsy woman whose healthy living tips are to die for. Trust me, she researches so well that her diet chart will never fail you! They have worked for me (a detailed post coming up) – thus I stand true witness and swear by it!

Hyderabad Times features me in their Books section and we chit chat a bit! So does Mid Day – Their special Girl Scout review of the Book really warms my heart.

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More updates on my FB page - I respond to everyone. Also, am discovering the joys of Twitter and promise to follow you back if you follow @seasaga right now! :) .

Phew that was quite a Sunday for me, while my Mother did sit pretty in her red nail paint! :P

Of Summer and Melons and being the "Author of the Month"

Ohhh I am so confused! Indeed I am! I am. I am. It’s spring, a lovely spring says the Mistah! I smile and nod. Wondering wish he knew the heat in Hyderabad and could listen to me screaming in my head “Bleh! What Spring it’s summer – get the beer from the chiller!” .

Oh yes for me Summer is here, but then why do am I indulging in spring mush now, you ask? Guess, it’s because it’s spring where the heart lives and summer where the mind is, and you see there’s an ardent desire for both to be appeased! :P

Summer means melons, the cool juice with loads of ice. Ma taking the pain to ensure no seeds choke the throat, while we kids run, play an gloat – an old memory afloat! :)

But guess Writer’s Melon read my mind and announced on a lovely summer day that I am the “Author of the Month” for March and “A Calendar too Crowded” has been selected by them as the “Book of the Month” , yaaayyyy! :) :)

And thus, began a journey when Men are not allowed, Saturdays are made silly and then when Mistah calls indulging in love and a season rainy ;)

So all month they go on to feature my writings and muse, oh do step by there and don’t refuse…

A nice little portal with my scribbles and notes, yes I am indeed counting for your votes …

Thank you Writer’s Melon, it’s a pleasure and honor to be featured by you, and needless to say you have charged me up with a passion for writing, anew! :) <3 :)

I guess am on a heavy dosage of Rilke these days, thus the award-winning poetry (LOL!)  .. blame the Spring and Summer confusion please! ;)

(Re)Introducing the Mistah :P

*Mush alert, the hooting girl gang kindly excuse* :P

It’s been ages since I wrote here. I mean the actual “write-write” posts and not review updates. All of a sudden today I had the craving for my space. Well, the craving has been there for the past few days but I just did not know how to pen things down. I did not want to rant, for I am bored of my own rants (yes yes no matter how ROFL you go over them, they are all my poor brain has to endure these days!) and yes the fact that BFF’s thunder cannot be stolen till her highness updates her blog. So I was left with nothing, well nothing but to count my blessings for once ;) … and thus this ….

I decide to introduce the “Mistah”! Yup, Y as you all know him is being re-christened and re-introduced. Nah, this is not a re-entry of the look alike as in the Bollywood flicks for he never disappeared and secondly thank you, but no thank you I think one of his genre is enough! (ohhhh that’s a compliment in case you are reading this my man! ;P ). Why now? Why this? Mainly because I get random pings these days by people who are discovering my blog *gloats and floats that her bog is not lost after all* that who is Y and why this particular consonant to refer him on the blog?

Well Y is perhaps the most constant variable in my life. I never really liked X for the mystery factor it brings in and then when I met Y, nothing but the said consonant suited him. Also, as I tell people I always felt that he holds the answers to all my question’s in life. Those days of childhood when your dad is your hero, suddenly seemed to have competition when I asked him the toughest question I faced and he answered it without looking up from the laptop which sometimes I doubt is the biggest threat to my existence! (No asking me what was the question please! :P )

However, all said and done after the random pings I decided I had to change the name – mainly coz the consonant has come to become the only constant factor that keeps me counting my blessings in life. There are days when I give up on myself and find him waiting for me to come around. There are other days when I am mad at him for not goofing around or playing along and instead being the workaholic self, but then a few days where I am in my worst self make me realize that the “Mistah” is actually the best answer to life’s problems.

I love the way he stands by everything I do, and though he might not agree with all my passions in life guess I respect him for the respect he shows for my wishes. The way he lets me pursue my heart, fall and learn for he knows am too stubborn for own self awes me. That’s why perhaps that day when someone asked me why do you love him so much I couldn’t help but tell her that -

“because he takes me in an his princess, trains me as a warrior and then sets me free to fight my own battles in life. All the while standing by being my knight in shining armor but never hurting my ego or my respect.”

He survives the worst of me at his best thus needless to say he makes the best of me look like a cake walk – guess that’s the beauty of inter-twined fingers and squeezing of hands. It’s just been 3 strides in this journey of life and walking towards that horizon, but the best is that my Mistah, you make the sunset storms too look pretty after they have passed, like gasping over a perfectly captured photograph that doesn’t highlight blemishes of fury, but the strength of nature :) … I owe a lot to you, to those talks in my head when my own voice is drowned in self doubt, for ignoring those stupid mails which I am too ashamed to even look at the sent items folder (ohhh I’ll even write him a mail, if he’s sleeping next to me and I am upset over something – yea weird but me!), or those silent strength vibes you pass when I am too low to even say what’s wrong. And yes for the highs there are the M&M fights, the goofy long drives, the nonsensical arguments over youtube songs and yes the way you turn the tables around after each goof! (You do. you do, you do! :P )

Thus, this is for you Mistah – for you with whom I am sure I’ll discover all answers that life has in store for me and in my favor, for you have this uncanny knack of turning things around for me whenever I pout with a “Why me?” :)

And just so that you come back and ask me what the lyrics of the song mean, I post this. Have I ever told you I choose all my dedications to you in Hindi because I love interpreting them to you over a common language adding a bit of how I feel for you – yes I cheat, but bleh, what’s life without a bit of those add ons :)

*touchwood*

Tum Ho Toh …

Leaving on a Jetplane, but I know I'll be back again…

 

Yes, by this time it’s up here, I’ll be up flying away from this land which is more than my own. I belong here and the madness and the wisdom I know will pull me back. And yes, M too – the best thing that happened to me here!

Till then please Mumbai, be what you are and yes take care of my baby too! It kills me to leave you, but the irony is you teach me to live everyday!

 

For all that and more… THANK YOU!

Okay so I am about 24 hours late. Well technically Thanksgiving is long over. Even my Mexican cousin is on the way of wrapping up her party. I spoke to her kids – tried to explain to them in a mix of Bengali and Nepali about Charulata’s entry into our lives and they rattle away in Spanish about their just over party. I listen quietly as I hear as to how they thanked God for everything good and try to appear all grown up and profound.

 As I sit here with my Krishna smiling at me today, I wonder whether I too should add a Thanks giving prayer to him. Then I look outside at the sky from my cubicle here – the dark cloudy skies with the sunshine pouring out at places where the cloud cover are a bit busted. It’s then that I find my Thanks giving prayer – the one that befits me. So here it is…

 Thank you for the palmful of sun peeping through the covers – it’s almost as if you say “strive for the light even in your darkest days”

 Thank you for the dark cover of the clouds – it’s like a mother giving her cover to cry for the children who just lost their loved ones today.

 Thank you for the preceding Thanksgiving and the Friday today – it’s heartening to walk down Haji Ali like each day watching the old chacha pray – looking around and wishing well, despite his fellow mate vandalizing you two years back. Thank you for teaching me objectivity today.

 Thank you for the little nip in the early morning air – it’s your way of running a shiver down, so that we never forget, what it feels to be cold and face death!

 Thank you for the special invite the people here have sent me – the spirits teach me that life is to be celebrated and not events.

 Thank you for the policeman who still guards the same place where his brother was shot – it teaches me how to face the worst fears eye to eye and learn and grow.

 Thank you Mumbai – for if God is a nothing but spiritual guess it takes his inspiration from the ‘spirit’ you spread around!

 My Thanksgiving goes to you …. I shall always be indebted to you for making me a wise human being and a proud citizen! What else can thanking be all about? And who else can be a greater God than the spirit that inspires you to live and love?

 

Top) 25 November 2010 ( Sanskrut Kuma/Mint), (below) 26 November 2010 (AFP)

Letters to my daughter – Part II

Dear Kali Pataka,

It’s been ages since I wrote to you. And yes of course am tired of calling you Anarkali – to have a mom like me and be stuck up with the same name is a disgrace right? So this is the name for the festive season – a mix of strong demeanour and sexy attitude: yes I want you to grow that way. :razz: :razz:

So you thought I forgot you with Tamanna coming into my life? No baby … that can never be for no two individuals can be compared. GM used to say that every person is unique in their own way and we bond with the most different sets to make our life complete. So if Tamanna stands for the demeanour I seek to create taking inspiration of the life that once was, you are who I see in the mirror each day – a true reflection of the crazy demented self! ;) ;)

It’s like friends who are different and separate in their own worlds but in your conjoined worlds they help you grow. Yes, that is what I shall talk to you today all about – friends! :D :D :D

Patu in your life, you’ll meet a lot of opposite gender friends to be categorised as cool, or the ones whom you want to date. Meet them, go out with them, suffer heart breaks, understand them, love them, hate them, loathe them, crave them – for you learn best from first hand experiences. I say that from my own. But make sure you befriend one guy whom you want to keep for the rest of your life as your prized relationship – like A. I want you to meet A Uncle Patu … not coz, I love him but to make you understand that not all opposite gender relationships have to end up in trials of sexuality. That you can get drunk, share a bed, cry, curl up in his lap and yet feel more secure than your own personal space. That you can freely love, trust and share without never having an iota of doubt that you shall be let down. Where you don’t need to define relationships to be sexual, contextual or even platonic – where you are just two individuals who are happy to be with each other and that’s their reason of bonding. :razz:

So much so you shall say, but what about my father if you are to ask I shall turn you then to a fanged but un-horned bat who shall in the most weirdest of ways take your number to pass on to a ‘battered wife’ who will call from a US number to complain about a beating husband and seek respite. You in your drunken demeanour and in wake of stalk calls being regular might deny being a lawyer and slam the phone down, but then later when u realise it’s the known bitch witch you shall scream out your lungs on a call and end up rolling in tears of ecstasy … with of course the long island ice tea going waste in salty waters. Of course also note if you can use swear words with a person of the same gender in your first conversation n crack up – it’s a starting of a lifetime friendship! :mrgreen:

Patu if ever you feel bereft of a father be introduced to Brat Uncle to understand that men never grow up and can never ask for a girl’s number without giving it away that they are doing so. Be introduced to Witchy aunty whose husband is kept cordoned off from all husbands battering news while she spreads the word about his butt over the phone. Such is the world dear – we don’t respect men – so why be with one? ;) ;) :twisted: ;) ;)

There’s of course one dignified man in the making – born out of a witch and I am contemplating of pairing you up with him … the problem is that the Witch needs the sacrifice of bat blood in the Arabian Sea as a bribe for that ! Don ‘t worry dear we shall arrange it soon – I mean me, Sunita and Reshma … till then just hold on to the Pink Lungi of Vimmuuu uncle – btw his policy behind the name goes to say if u give him two lungi – he’ll return three : we shall always invite him to our luncheons .. what say darling? :evil: :twisted: :evil:

Till you disown me and join the latest reality show on TV called the Big Switch (where apparently you call in to complain about your parents and they find you a new set!) … :shock:

Butt Cuddles,

Amma

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P.S: I write this after 3 long island ice teas, 1 mojito and 2 tequila shots and of course half hour midnight conversation with Sakshi … who posed as a battered wife seeking my help at 12:30 am claiming to belong to Mumbai calling from a US number! And of course after a 3 hour chat with Brat …. u think I would be sober …. I needed the drinks to survive man! :| ;) :shock: :roll:

P.P.S: For more letters to my unfortunate unborn daughter click here ;) ;)

Mumbai Mondays 3 – Dilwalon ki Diwali :)

Each day that passes with glitters on, we wish we could celebrate a different dawn.

We say that the heart urges to make a difference, to do away with mundane rituals that at times make little sense.

But then how many of us do that in real life?

Well the ‘Partner in Madness’ did it this year and made it a Dilwalon ki Diwali in the true sense of the word for a lot others. And needless to say am proud of him – more so coz we started this Mumbai Mondays together and ofcourse coz I’m the lucky one that gets to showcase a wonderful Mumbaikar who lit a million smiles this Diwali!

So while we struggled at home puffing up the cushions or ushering guests and debating on whether the jalebis were sweet enough, Harish decided to go a bit further to celebrate Diwali. Accompanied by our dear old Punto, he drove down to celebrate Diwali at Shantivan - the old age home at Panvel.

Inspired by a personal loss, and in an attempt to feel close to a lost beloved, Harish’s association with Shantivan dates long back, but this is the first time perhaps he gives us a glimpse of how truly in the suburbs of this vast city, joy and life is celebrated by people for whom the journey of life is almost considered to be over.

Located at Nere 5 kms away from Panvel on Panvel Matheran Road, Shantivan houses around 40 people, all of whom are considered to be a burden by the same souls whom they gave birth to and an identity once. Am sorry but like Harish I too fail to understand and associate with the thought that a reason can be so compelling as to push parents to an old age home, and this disturbs and bothers us on such occasions & beyond.

This year instead of feeling the urge to change, Harish actually thought about taking the step for the change and so what better occasion than Diwali to start the journey of smiles with Keshav Kaka and Vidya Tai?

Like every year the old but proud and youthful minded people of Shantivan celebrated Diwali in the most different and unique way you can think of.

While we think life ends at 60, here were 2 wonderful gentlemen who showed that passion and zeal shows the way to live on in high spirits even in the 90s.

Their soulful singing moved even the celebrated Marathi lyricist present there. One can see in the videos captured by Harish the passion with which the old try to oust their crestfallen hearts and they and embrace festivities despite being one of the worst sufferers.

As Harish told me later, that they don’t inspire him to do a lot – they do more. They inspire him to be the child who he wishes and they desire. They help him smile and live life surrounded by unadulterated love. What more does the heart want?

True that Partner! I don’t want to play down how much you have touched each Mumbaikar today by using the words “noble” “sweet” “humanitarian” … but yes I just want to tell you that I hope we can show the world that our generation no matter how much it is coaxed for being detached, somewhere still holds the ground for people like you.

Keep it up and hope Shantivan is again featured in Mumbai Mondays soon! (This time hopefully with me in the picture too :razz: )

A true Dilwalon ki Diwali here at Mumbai Mondays where one amongst us tried to lit up faces and go beyond mundane diya lightings! :razz: :razz:

So how was yours??? Can u summarize it in a phrase? ;) ;)

 

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Mumbai Mondays is all about seeing Mumbai and its surroundings through my eyes. It’s my take to introduce you to a city and its surroundings which I love, as I see it – alone and often with friends (we call ourselves the Mumbai Mad Caps). It’s a thread that goes live every Monday. I cover places randomly and welcome suggestions too. You can find more posts about Mumbai Mondays here.

Aaj phir jeene ki "Tamanna" hai …

Edited to Add: This post has been selected as the Blogadda’s Tangy Tuesday pick for November 2, 2010. It humbles me and makes me stand touched that Tamanna has been so warmly received by all of you. I am not sure if Tamanna would understand this entire concept of blog world as of now, but yes I’ll tell her in my own way as to how much people are glad to know her. Thanks guys for standing by me!

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I don’t know how many of you remember this wish of mine.

Yes yes – things were different then and wishes and dreams had a backing. But I can’t let dreams die out because suddenly I woke up without my back support right? I mean if I am living, breathing I should also dream right … as IHM said in her post – “The pain will never go, but you will smile again.

So here I welcome to my world Tamanna – my God child. After months of deliberation, after endless sleepless nights, after random chats with a soul sister and encouragement from another soul mate I took this decision last week.

I know it’s BIG, HUGE a responsibility, but I know I am ready. For I know if he was here with me, this wouldn’t be my solo decision and that Tamanna would be ushered in too.

I have always been active in the kiddo segment and so when I called up my favourite organisation wing in Mumbai and gave references of our association during the AILA episode, they were more than glad to help. Here I was introduced to the Nanhi Kali – Tamanna. It’s not her real name, but the name ‘we’ loved, so here is the escape. I am not to give out her background or her picture, because I don’t want people to tell me what a noble thing I am doing.

It’s high time we realise that we don’t mentor people to oblige them. It’s an association where both the individuals who need each other come close to grow up together in their individual and conjoint worlds. That’s why I needed Tamanna. To me the moment I met her she was the nanhi kali I wanted to bloom in the most fragrant way.

She is not to live in with me for seeing her tender age and her bond with her elder sibling I don’t want to displace her and yes of course the larger issue being am not ready for full-time adoption. So I have decided to mentor her in my own way. I am to meet her as many times as possible in a week and we shall decide the course of education, fun, and discover ways to handle life together.

When I met her today, I saw a fragile shy young girl who hid behind her grandmother and refused to face me. M4 had warned me earlier of the emotional baggage Tamanna was to come with, Minal had repeatedly told me that I should just be myself and let the warmth flow. So when her grandmother started talking to me in Marathi, I looked at her helplessly and confessed that I had come there so that I could learn Marathi.

The giggles started and the ice broke as we spoke about “boogie woogie”, name-place-animal-thing, and all that you can think of in your pig tailed days. There was something in her smile which made me realise that no matter how tough the road looks (yes it is tough – all of that in some other post) it’s not impossible.

I don’t know where this road will lead me, but one thing is for sure as I spoke to Ma about this and later M4 and Minal, I knew that I have angels to look over both of us – me and Tamanna and help us bloom.

Welcome Tamanna people – I need all of your wisdom and pranks to help this work! I hope it does. And Y no matter where you are, needless to say this is for you – for no matter what happened I can never take the credit out for the way you have changed my life!

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Edited to Add: This is the last weekend of the Breast Cancer Awareness Month – A dreaded word which is like the bitter medicine we all must be aware about. I tried my bit by contributing about the legal rights of breast cancer patients at 2 guests posts @blogadda (When a pink ribbon is tied over the black advocate robe – Part I and Part II). Hope you adorned the pink ribbon too.

Mumbai Mondays – Prelouge

Pitter Patter rains drops on the window sill that wake you up…
The groans under the quilt of yet another rainy day,
The sound of the lashing waves and roars that sweep you away.
 
The whistle of the first morning local, the horns of the red bus,
The hustle bustle of the varied people, that reminds you of the Noddyland rush.
And yet as the sleepy eyes stare outside the window,
A shot of green soothes you down and makes you realize that here’s where dreams grow.
 
A quick walk by the sea, a dip to soak in the moisture laden air,
A run to the nearest park or to the mall surrounded by the filmy fan-fare.
Quintessential old buildings standing the test of times,
A café with bullet marks – witness of the one of the most heinous crimes.
 
An old Dargah where the Namaz sounds like a mother’s soothing lore,
Arrays of colorful shops – a shopper’s paradise to the core.
A heritage temple filled with incessant chants,
The incense laden giddy air that soaks up all your rants.
 
A man in suit scurrying for the early train,
An outstretched hand that pulls him in, and leaves you humbly humane.
A long car that stops by the road to let a young kid hop across,
Makes you wonder as to how much traditions still lay here beneath the modern-gloss.
 
The local theatre saluting the native tongue, the English pubs taking on Lenon,
The Garba Raas that runs all night long, and the Parsi Temple where the fire still glows strong,
Confluence, Tolerance, Acceptance, Heritage, Modernity, Culture, Humanity all at the different high.
And that is how I have come to be adopted by this wondrous city of Mumbai!

Welcome to Mumbai Mondays!

A glimpse through my eyes of the city, which isn’t my biological land, but has nurtured me as a foster parent. And nurtured me well. When every nook and corner of a city amazes you and holds a treasure, how can you not write about it at leisure? :razz:

So every week I pick up places, nuances, events or snippets of my life here to write and rant about, not a tribute of sorts but just to let the world know why this is still my favorite place after trotting half the globe. :razz:

And yes, would love it if you want me to cover a particular place and write about it. So let me know people how well you want to know Mumbai! :D :D :D

What better way than to start a mundane Monday with memories of a place, a time, an incident that made you smile? Hain na? :razz: :razz: :razz:

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Mumbai Mondays is all about seeing Mumbai and its surroundings through my eyes. It’s my take to introduce you to a city and its surroundings which I love, as I see it – alone and often with friends (we call ourselves the Mumbai Mad Caps). It’s a thread that goes live every Monday. I cover places randomly and welcome suggestions too. You can find more posts about Mumbai Mondays here.